I am leaving you with a gift-peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.
It hasn’t been an easy decision to determine what I wanted to share this week. I have a lot of things that I am learning and wanting to express, but there has been an overarching theme in everything: Peace. This is why I chose to share that verse from the book of John.
Let’s all be honest, life is crazy, and it’s tough to navigate through it. It’s not always easy. In fact, a lot of the time it’s actually really difficult. It’s not all rainbows and butterflies, and it’s definitely not a Disney movie. It is more like a roller coaster, and we can often feel like a human yo-yo. We’ve all had our fair share of moments where we wonder when there is going to be calm so we can breathe again.
Recently, I’ve had a lot of moments like that. This past month has been a whirlwind for me, and it’s just the start of the year. That’s not even considering what the last couple years have been like. I’ve encountered major changes in my job, relationship, friendships, school, and family. I didn’t always know how to handle what was coming at me.
The Lord actually cut me off from quite a few people over the last year and has recently brought some of them back into the picture. I have gotten so frustrated with God and spent many an evening curled up and crying, wondering what He was up to. At times I felt so alone. But do you know what He would always give me? Peace. It is the craziest thing to experience that peace that no one else can give. Literally no one else, not my family, not my friends, not my cat, the man that I deeply care for, or any material thing can give me or you this peace. He may use people to help, but ultimately, it is those times where I am quiet and alone with Jesus that I experience that peace.
It’s the most indescribable and wonderful feeling to experience. You can’t always describe it, and it doesn’t make sense, especially to those around you. But they aren’t the ones experiencing it. You are. You know that no matter what, it’s going to be okay. You know that it is in His hands. You know that He has a plan, and you are able to rest in that.
It’s not something that you can fully understand until you have experienced it. I have literally felt it wash over my whole body. In those moments where I felt so alone, unloved, unsure, and any other negative feeling you can probably imagine, Jesus was there and He gave me peace. He helped me to see that this was not the end of things. He helped to reassure me that there was more to my story and that He was in control. All I had to do was to keep trusting Him. I needed to have complete and total faith in Him.
This continues to ring true for me. At times, I forget that peace because I lose my focus. Thankfully, He gives me that peace again. He is giving me a peace about what I’m doing and where I am going. No, I don’t always understand or even like how I’m having to get where I am going. It’s not easy, and sometimes it hurts, but I know that He is sovereign over all things and He is with me through all things.
If you haven’t found peace in Him, I encourage you to pray and ask for His comfort. Ask for direction and discernment with where He is taking you and what He is doing. If you don’t have peace about something, there may be a reason why. Seek refuge in Him and lean into Him. Put your hope and faith in Him. Give it entirely to Him. He can provide you with such a sense of peace. It will be as if He is holding you, as though He has wrapped his arms around you. As the song says, He is a good, good Father. He can meet you where you are at, as He has met me where I am at. He has never let me down.